Lyrics
It's Pivotal in the cycle I'm going psycho
Days blend together I'm in a vicious spiral looking for my revival
Crackle from the vinyl crawl up your spinal I'm tapping in
Listen how I'm seeping deep into your soul
The devil is reaping while we all sleeping so we search for gold
Even after ten thousand hours I still haven't reached my goal
Matter of fact I'm on a sinking boat
Ocean full of hope I been
Drifting in the middle while trying to solve the riddle
Trying to find the balance between the dark and the challenge, but
The weight up on my shoulders keep on bringing me down
I feel lifted until my souls hit the ground
I'm feeling lost until I drown in the sounds
Got me staring at the stars while I'm trying to figure it out
I got these bars and no shadow of doubt
Heavy rain always falls after a drought
So I hadn't seen my family in like a year and a half
and, it was just a lot of anxiety
a lot of nervousness's
Not really sure what was, going to happen in my life next
I think like uh,
I think it's,
Hard sometimes like
When, when you get nervous about what like the future is going to be and all that
That was currently how I was feeling, you know
I was currently feeling anxious about the future
and I feel like, I don't know I-
I couldn't get it out of mind
Spiraling to the bottom surrounded by only darkness
When I was growing up, man I never knew what to call it
And now a days I've learned to disregard the toxic
But after cutting them off I'm still tripping and falling
Damn, I could never trust my instincts
Cause anxiety can turn little to a big thing
I hate confrontation turn my impatience into a rage that probably got all the demons round me grinning
yeah, uh, for everyday that I fell always tripping I been trying to find a way to prove 'em wrong so I been distant
Cause I could tell you it all and still feel like you ain't listening
Crowded thought's continue to cloud up my vision
Time is ticking I ain't been home to visit I hope that my family miss me
I'm breaking all their traditions, ignoring all the opinions of those going against me
Cause only god knows that these potholes can weigh down the drive that's with in me
The past is looking foggy, but the future looking vivid
Focused on my path and I'm losing time to get it
I been getting high and feel like I'm pushing limits
Currently how I'm feeling got my head up on the celling
Written by: Hayden R Hare
