Disconnected

I don't wanna do it now I don't wanna go outside Been falling, been falling Tell me that it's all my lies Think about it all the time Been falling, been falling Yeah, sick of comparing myself, drive to get air for myself I haven't slept in 2 days, I should take care of myself So unaware of myself, at times I stare at myself And hate the person I see, it's like I'm glaring at hell, 'cause I'm always ruminating, always felt disconnected Why can I not escape these, thoughts that I keep on dreading My minds constantly racing, I try to intercept it I wish someone can save me, 'cause I see where I'm headed, yeah But that's my life though, drowning in muddy waters, I need a life boat Always felt misunderstood, I don't know why though Always shutting the world out, guess that how I cope My phone, doesn't ring, late night, little flings Don't result in real things, overed over the sink Always get what I want, but ignore what I need Yeah I'm getting these checks, no one's checkin' on me But I'm living my dreams, constant stress that it brings Jealousy in the air tonight, jealously what it breeds It ain't all what it seems, family don't even clap for me But when when they all down bad, they hit me up to get a stack from me, yeah-yeah-yeah Crazy how it is, people be feeling entitled to this But they weren't around, while I was down They got there hands out, I give 'em a fist, can Spot out a fake, just leave out some bait And then pull it back as soon as they take You will be amazed, by all of the snakes That you catch in this bitch Wasting time, every time I trying You don't lie? that's a lie, I can tell Can't disguise who you are all that well... I don't wanna do it now I don't wanna go outside Been falling, been falling Tell me that it's all my lies Think about it all the time Been falling, been falling