What We Had

I wake up too early It's 4 am again The first thought that hits me Is of you and me back then The memory makes me happy For a second I feel okay But shortly thereafter I'm numbed by the pain I keep blaming myself My fear is That I'll never again Have what we had That I played my cards And I lost That this is it Until the end Trying to stay sane You know it'll be alright But when the sorrow strikes it doesn't feel that way And it's harder each and every day A part of me still loves you I guess it always will Hope I'm strong enough to make it through the pain And find true love again Sometimes I'm worried My fear is That I'll never again Have what we had That I played my cards And I lost That this is it Until the end I keep blaming myself My fear is That I'll never again Have what we had That I played my cards And I lost That this is it Until the end