Happy When I Die

Why do I keep running from the person I'm becoming? I spent all my money, but I'll be happy when I die It's game over, 10 a.m. and I'm not sober Tryin' to keep my composure (mm-mmm), so I could be happy when I die I'm tryna make me a mil', but shit, I can't pay my bills 'Cause I be craving 'em pills, they say I'm crazy as hell I need a place I can chill, stay away in the hills I'll catch a case if you will 'cause I ain't taking no ill Make sure your seatbelts are fastened, I ain't the cat you imagine 'Cause I'm sociopathic and a little old-fashioned Like a young Charles Manson and a recent Ted Danson Try to cause a distraction (Charlie, wait, what happened?) So what had happened was I never really gave a fuck Plus, I was dangerous when buzzed off a case of Bud Money? I don't make enough, won't hesitate to take your drugs The real you's just fake as fuck, before I die, I'll take the dub Why do I keep running from the person I'm becoming? I spent all my money, but I'll be happy when I die It's game over, 10 a.m. and I'm not sober Tryin' to keep my composure (mm-mmm), so I could be happy when I die Down the 101 with no one inside my ride Wasting away, lost my baby and don't know why But I've been faded like all my life Sometimes I question if the pain is ever worth my high I talk to God, but he ain't ever answer I really wish I had a reason to ask for some peace back 'Cause in my life, I don't relax A heart attack, I feel my love is starting to relapse Why do I keep running from the person I'm becoming? I spent all my money, but I'll be happy when I die It's game over, 10 a.m and I'm not sober Tryin' to keep my composure (mm-mmm), so I could be happy when I die But I'll be happy when I die