There was this gate
Into my persecution
Built of curiosity
Now it's built of nothing
It was never about finding a way
But the current state of mind
You'd like to fall
You want it
Aside
There's not much left to be part of
And the cause is meant to rest inside
Close to find out
I brought this on myself
Whatever it is I feel, it needs to go away
It'd be so easy to cope with
But it clearly wants to stay
Pathetic
Conflicting
So why do I have the need to care?
It's always the struggle
Then the thoughts
Followed by an accident
Because of you I feel worse
And also know it could be better
Pathetic
Conflicting
At the same time
With the best and the worst purpose
Reflected in my behavior
That's why I hoped you'd go for a walk
But you're still here waiting by my side
It's the jiff, the instant
That keeps me going and makes me hate you
Should I just wait then?
Take a rest?
When all there is is time...
