Double Aquarius

Is Mercury in retrograde

Or am I just feeling blue?

I'm looking for some sort of explanation

For why I can't seem to

Get out of bed, enjoy the sunlight

I fight with my thoughts until midnight

Yet I have the nerve to tell you that I'm alright

My shrink says I should have some self-compassion

Well, where does one find that?

I know I am my own worst enemy

But that doesn't change the fact

I'm haunted by my introspection

My biggest fear is my own reflection

It seems to appear when I least expect it

Yes, I know that I'm a mess

But don't forget, I'm also a double Aquarius

I spend most of my time cooped up in my room

It's better off that way

Small talk makes me want to stick pins in my eyes

I don't know what to say

When all of my friends seem so happy

Meanwhile, I'm here feeling crappy

Nursing my laptop watching reruns of Glee

I probably sound just like a broken record

That plays the same old song

No one likes it when I control the aux chord

But I don't know what's wrong

With dancing to Sufjan at a party

If I'm killing the mood, I'm sorry

The pressure to party is what's kind of killing me

Yes, I know that I'm a mess

But don't forget, I'm also a double Aquarius

My horoscope said that this month

My lucky number would be two

The only match for me is the person in the mirror

Who says, "You've gotta get out of your head"

I look back at that person and I say

Yes, I know that I'm a mess

But don't forget, I'm also a double Aquarius