And alone in my room I sit and talk

Let my thoughts pay off with once I bought

I see darkness out the window I've

Relapsed to the point of living life

With my orb in hand I reap what I wrote like the mortgage man

Too deep in the horrors pray the morning can

Bring light need a Mormons plan flee to foreign land

Yeah I worry a lot It's all the pot I smoked and my Brain the stove top

Got a hot heavy head and I'm not ready yet

But boiling over and sorry overthinking this mess

Sleep is dead, the night of mares repair the air there catching dreams

Or so it seems to be

The caffeine's fine to wake my mind but bags of eyes are getting dark

There Filled with greed, no sleep

I'm hungry no, I know shows I'm poking bones and moping loads

It's death I need

I don't want it or need it self harming myself

Me alone is affecting my health reminds me of times at school I got picked on

I would let it happed, the kid with the glasses getting attacked and

Punched in the back, studying some shitty math

Was tryna impress, the girl in a dress

Ended up crying like the pussy I was

What the fuck was I thinking I use to be lost

Nothing has actually changed, I put myself in pain for the rhyme (fuck)

And I can feel it around (I can feel him around)

The pressures pushing me down (the pressures pulling me down)

As I collapse (as I collapse)

I pin myself back

And these feelings of grey (and these feelings of grey)

Thought I took them away (thought I took them away)

But I was wrong (I was wrong)

There with me every fucking single day

But how the fuck I'm suppose to give a fuck when I don't even know what the day is

Sense I'm making bacon, I ain't got any I'm making none I'm sane as David is

You don't get it cause your mind is closed so just open your mind I can savor it

I'm just the omnipresence that you feel inside you fall like goliath hard labor he did (yea)

And alone in my room I sit and talk

Let my thoughts pay off with once I bought

I see darkness out the window I've

Relapsed to the point of living life

Life is not like a box of chocolates, you know what Your gonna get

If Mental health was a candy Box you're not gonna give it to your friend

Expectations got complications with another year past, fuck education

Meds are raising now mood erasing with emotions here fast

I kill temptations

I might just end it for the fuck of it, Pussy boy suck a dick cause you're not running shit

Put a noose around your neck fuckers running no check

It's a stretch to be best when you sound like the rest

See all the irony Its really sad to be rapping hypocrisy

Mocking myself there's a difference to em but frustrated as him

Cause I know what he's saying he castrated trapping (yuh)

No more cigarettes for the boy, never moved on I thought I saved the boy

I'm still stuck in noise, fucking foot in the void

Think I struck a nerve, the Tars on the curve

Where my white flag at, Suppose to rise

Hidden behind rock the bog never died

I may be speaking nadsat, to me it's surreal

In my head I hear a cracking but I just want to feel

And I can feel it around (I can feel him around)

The pressures pushing me down (the pressures pulling me down)

As I collapse (as I collapse)

I pin myself back (crying out for help)

And these feelings of grey (and these feelings of grey)

Thought I took them away (thought I took them away)

But I was wrong (I was wrong)

There with me every fucking single day

Can my demons come back here to face me

Thought it was over the pain inside the pitiful clouds

But the reasons I'm trapped here eternally

Always cross over to why I write sounds

Can my demons come back here to face me

Thought it was over the pain inside the pitiful clouds

But the reasons I'm trapped here eternally

Always cross over to why I write sounds