Music Video
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COMPOSITION & LYRICS
Nuriel
Songwriter
Lyrics
Welcome to my journey that I'm 'bout to take ya through
I'm opening up this mind, so, listen for a while
'Cause I'm pouring some of my thoughts into this composition
Including my emotions & feelings I've been wanting to talk about
All I can say at this very moment I'm proud of myself
Took me a year to assemble this wild journal
During this living hell that I'm seduced in, vilely
It's something to address mindfully, rightfully
'Cause I know my life will be passing me by
I know I don't have any time to sit here & cry
I know there's someone at home dealing with the same issue as mine
Relate to every rhyme, we're clones just living different lives
The enemy is like a parasite, I can feel it in my bones
Watching it destroy my life, now I let myself go
By eating junk food to cope with the pain
'Cause when I feel worthless I find a way to medicate
This chaotic drug got the best of me
I've been hiding my true identity
Masking myself 'cause I'm ashamed of me
Someone who is an addict fiend
Why am I an addict fiend?
Driven to embrace all my sinful needs
Finding ways to explain this lyrically
Behind closed doors you'll find the real me
The devil has been tempting me
Why you tempting me, huh?
What you know about a man living underground looking down staring at the floor?
What you know about a man staring at a mirror thinking, where did time go, go, go?
Will someone ever relate to the things that I feel inside?
Will someone ever relate to my crooked side?
Will someone ever relate to my book of rhymes?
Will someone ever relate when I say I'm losing my mind?
Retaliate, but sometimes I can't seem to fight the same
Like, what's the point trying, I'm gonna fall again
Pick myself back up, man, I'm feelin' brave
When it's good luck bad comes to play
Hot tempered, frying up the brain, grouchy moods
Sounding rude, screwing up my cranium, storming off
Typhoon, I'm going pandemonium, bringing out my podium
Preachin' for the ones that can't speak welcome to my auditorium
Telling you story of an addict abuser, problematic inducer
Post traumatic confusion, all these things that I view
Rapidly pursue to reduce all my memories I once knew
Shoot up all my insanity illusions
But sometimes I refuse to put a bullet through this
'Cause I kinda love it I let it use me & bruise me
I'm turning to a monster, I'm hurting the ones that I love the most
I'm the opposite is what I was told, friendly & kind
Nah, I'm mental & blind, I can't even recognize myself
Low self esteem so low I'm at the bottom of this world
Where no one can hear me scream
Pulling me deeper from reaching my dreams
"Breaking the habits!" hearing me shout it
Guess you never know what you're addicted to
Until you try to get out of it
Someone wake up 'cause I'm tryna snap out of it
Will I make it out alive?
Will I make it out sometime?
I don't even know
Battle all the pain inside
Will this fight end tonight?
End tonight, end tonight, tonight, tonight
This chaotic drug got the best of me
I've been hiding my true identity
Masking myself 'cause I'm ashamed of me
Someone who is an addict fiend
Why am I an addict fiend?
Driven to embrace all my sinful needs
Finding ways to explain this lyrically
Behind closed doors you'll find the real me
The devil has been tempting me
Why you tempting me, huh?
Writer(s): David Cardenas
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