Don't you ever leave

Stay

Even though everything that I hold just tends to break

Going to war with my mind and my soul

I'm so afraid, afraid

Stay

Even though everything that I hold just tends to break

Going to war with my mind and my soul

I'm so afraid, afraid

Sometimes pain hurts the people you love

I've been dealing with some issues way deeper than trust

Said I'd quit all of my vices yet I'm keeping them up

Inhale the nicotine and let it seep through my blood

Everyone I grow love for walks out on me

Everyone I show trust in just doubted me

Wish my grandpa would be by my side but he died before I ever could make him proud Of me

Don't you ever leave

Stay

Even though everything that I hold just tends to break

Going to war with my mind and my soul

I'm so afraid, afraid

Stay

Even though everything that I hold just tends to break

Going to war with my mind and my soul

I'm so afraid, afraid

I'm filled with sadness

I understand if you don't understand this

Ou ou

Feel so abandoned

Why let you in if you're just gonna vanish?

Ou ou

Please do not lie to me

Put your true colors on my canvas

Ou ou

I get so anxious

Your heart in my hands is just too much to handle yeah

I break everything that I touch

And it'd break me to know that you're broken because of me

Don't bother loving me

I am too damaged and you don't deserve to go through all my suffering

I've dug my nails in my palms till my hands start to bleed

I self harm due to all this self hatred

If these walls could talk I would tell them to shut the fuck up

Knuckles bloodied from breaking their faces

I'm way too impatient

I've waited too long for my shot at a piece of the cake like a happy belated

As a kid my innocence was tainted

Bullied my whole life, that's why I am so dangerous

As much as I tell you to leave me alone please don't leave me, I know I am too Complicated

Depressed and the mess in my heart I express through my art

I put the first four letters in painting

Don't you ever leave

Stay

Even though everything that I hold just tends to break

Going to war with my mind and my soul

I'm so afraid, afraid

Stay

Even though everything that I hold just tends to break

Going to war with my mind and my soul

I'm so afraid, afraid

January 2017, I️ found myself in my worst form

Smoking, drinking, making bad decisions, mami wasn't proud of her first born

Jeopardizing my health, wasn't myself, life wasn't purposeful

Used to front like I️ ain't give a fuck, but when you hold it in is when it hurts more

When the pain seems unbearable

And your heart is no longer repairable

Death doesn't seem terrible

But pain is only transferable

Your closest ones will inherit the pain that you leave

So please believe

I'll live a hell of a life because heaven is not guaranteed

I️ will be free

Why won't you stay with me my love?

Why won't you stay with me?

Why won't you stay with me my love?

My love, my love, my love, my love woah