If I Could

This goes out to you

Once you were my friend

Someone who could go on

Where I would turn and run

But we were different then, not so worn

When last I heard your voice

You sounded like a ghost

And now you're almost gone

I'm so sorry

This will not turn out as it should

I'm so sorry

And I would change it if I could

Broken hearts are fragile

The shards are sharp as knives, and bitterly cold

The strength that drew you in

Became the wall that shut you out

You ran, never looking back

And anyone who cared was made a liar

But a safe road is hard to find

When there's nowhere left to go

I'm so sorry

This will not turn out as it should

I'm so sorry

And I would change it if I could

And I've spent too many hours diving back down in the mud

To find some meaning in a madness that I never understood

I am tracing, step by step, the rot and where it first took hold

Back through the promises you've broken and the lies you must have told 'Cause something must have chased all the softness from your face Turned your eyes into a visor, pushed that hard mouth into place

Some doors, when they've been closed, will not open for a grin

There's no one on the outside

And there's no way back in

I'm so sorry

This will not turn out as it should

I'm so sorry

And I would change it if I could

I’m so sorry