Addiction brings me to my knees
I'm searching for a will
A will to fight this disease
Confliction
War wages in this heart that beats
Is my life worth saving or
Do I give up on me
God where were you
In my moment of need
I'm falling into this hole
Of self pity that I loathe
Yeah there's nothing left to prove
I am not in control
When you lose all self control
Will you bend the knee
No I will never stop
Not for you or your higher being
My nirvana
Eye in the sky
Lies red as roses
White lines with lethal doses
I need help
There is no doubt
I want out
Something's gotta give
I'm falling into this hole
Of self pity that I loathe
Yeah there's nothing left to prove
I am not in control
Save me from myself
I'm barely hanging on
You reached out
And saw me
You saved me
Live on for me
Don't mourn when it's over
'Cause I'm already gone
My demons are getting closer
With every single day
They will come on my darkest hour
On my final day
