Think, Blink, Breathe, Blink, Speak, Blink, Breathe

I'm half a child Half a boy Half a man It's quite hard to make these 1 into my brain Don't worry if you see a blue screen in my eyes My head must be cooling Have a cookie, I'll be right back in a sec I found love, I found a home, I sing songs I should be glad but my soul is more like a stone I got fears I got dreams But I wonder Do they belong to me or not? Were my parents that sad? A year ago, life was a crazy mess Now it's a crazy mess with people dying in it People die all the time but I'm not near them I find they're not really good at discussion If you're dead I'd be better if you understand I don't believe in ghosts but i'm afraid of them My shrink thinks my fear is not about a man Or a woman Or a something Having fun with bed sheets Please Don't try to talk to me or I would die myself I've never been into Scaring People Anyway I'm not asking for help neither To anyone Anytime Anywhere A year ago ghosts were scary as hell Now they're scary as hell but they're coughing in their sheets I feel the mistery of life is just a headline Yet the mistery of death remains untouched Our brains a mazes but no one's got the map Just exit signs in every single directions I just wanna stop and grab a sandwich but Eventually I remember I planned to get out I try to dream but I think about the next chord Must be a G but I'm going for a D I wallow in my unexpected memories Sometimes I cry Most of the time I drink I think blink breathe blink speak blink breathe Then I drink drink drink drink blink drink And then I sleep Somebody said I should live in a bigger house Somewhere I could rest More pictures on the walls There I could blink drink blink drink blink drink And then I'd drink drink drink Life is balanced and smoky A year ago houses were places where we lived Now they're places where we watch boring livestreams I read a really good book about life and stars And if we scream loud enough we might be blackmailing An invisible threat with a gun in our mouth Now I watch the night sky and give it the finger You can make me feel like shit but you can't prevent me From eating comfort food and watching TV I think blink breathe blink speak blink breathe Then I drink drink drink drink blink drink And then I sleep I think blink breathe blink speak blink breathe Then I drink drink drink drink blink drink And drink A year ago a cloud in the shape of a dog Was a bit funny now it looks like it's gonna bite me Maybe next year we'll all agree this was a wolf All along All along Last summer I swam in a pool, It was nice I swear I didn't know what was coming Life is funny that way Life is bad, Life is good It all depends what game we play