Choose

I'm such a disappointment No life no career I feel so embarrassed I wish I could disappear No lovers no others No family or friends That require I impress them Or at the very least pretend I got a dead-end employment In which I'm overinvested I work very long hours But I'm not very well rested Need a leap of faith To fall so far from grace I leave my comfort zone So I can drop my stone I want to quit my job I want to climb that mountain I want to kill that monster In a dirty fountain Got-to-get back to life Like a big bright knight How can I keep what I have And still get what I want I gotta choose If I got nothing to lose (There's always something to lose) I gotta choose choose choose I got my lies to lose I got my life to lose I tried to find meaning Through love and even God But no partner no religion Could fill my empty heart In fact all my efforts Only tore me apart But the joy of rock bottom Is the chance to restart I uncovered the lies From our almighty gods From our loving parents and Our faulty frauds Default reality Brought out insanity I thought that I was through But I was fucking screwed! So I quit my job Yeah I climbed that mountain And I killed that monster In a dirty fountain I'm gonna get back to life Like a big bright knight I'm gonna leave what I have So I can get what I want I gotta choose If I got nothing to lose (There's always something to lose) I gotta choose choose choose I got my lies to lose I got my life to lose I gotta choose If I got nothing to lose (There's always something to lose) I gotta choose choose choose I got my lies to lose I got my life to lose And if you think you're gonna crack Just take another look at the facts It's always scary near the edge Cause you know there's just no coming back But now you gotta choose If you got nothing to lose You gotta choose choose choose You got your lies to lose You got your life to lose You gotta choose If you got nothing to lose (There's always something to lose) You gotta choose choose choose You got your lies to lose You got your life to lose You got your lies to lose You got to choose