I'm falling off again - guess I need to lean on kinder friends
I'm looking for the sign just to feel that I'm better
Thinking of the times when we worked well together
In the white noise, in the bedroom where I sleep
Helps drown out thoughts that I can't keep
I've been helpless here for weeks
When am I ever gonna have it all?
Feeling like I'll never climb over the wall
You never wanted to let go
Of the things that helped us grow
Hoping for the right way
I'm hoping that I'll find something right for me
It will come one day when I can trust myself
But for now I'll have to wait to see
Thinking of you
Taking it in stride
Living life inside
Isn't it so nice
Waiting for it all to die
Taking my time to break the patterns and the cycles
Gotta stop this constant loop before it's too late
I never thought that life could feel this dull
Maybe in the end I will feel better if I wait
And for now I'll leave it for another day
Call my friends and see what they all have to say
But for now I'll have to find another way out
Asking if I even really want to stay
