Alone at home, homesick, self medicating

Understand I'm on my own shit, lately I feel better my own

Let my phone ring, I don't like to talk cause I don't wanna say the wrong thing,

I don't like what all this money gon' bring

I ain't slept in some days, I been stuck in my ways

I need someone to save me, I'm going insane

I swear this shit starting to get old, I'm praying I'ma feel at home again before this shit over

Swear I'm tired of getting told it all get better, it don't

I been fighting silent battles in my head for the longest, I don't like trying to act like I ain't stressing for y'all

I been talking to the sky wondering when will the storm end, I question if its ever even ending at all

Baby, I'm all out of trust and forgiveness

I been off them drugs, its all love if I been distant

All this on my chest I'm doing my best to find what's missing

Ignoring all my texts, I admit it, I'm dismissive

Feel like jail how I'm living, I could cry when I think about my feelings

I survived, I can't tell you how I did it

I can't lie, I been better but I'm chillin'

Dying inside but I'm knowing I'ma die a living legend (Oh)

Hurt for my whole life, that shit inspired me to get it (Oh)

Shit, if ain't nobody on my side, its me against it all

I been wanted this shit for all this time, I bet it all

If it all don't go my way at least I tried

Alone at home, homesick, self medicating

Understand I'm on my own shit, lately I feel better my own

Let my phone ring, I don't like to talk cause I don't wanna say the wrong thing,

I don't like what all this money gon' bring

I been high for a week and then some

99 problems, only thing that I'm deprived of is sleep

Showing signs of defeat (I surrender)

Looking for a sign, I been trying to believe

Too many times I put my pride to the side

All of them lies that I let slide, I'm trying to heal with time

I'll be better in another life, it hurt to hear but still, nobody care until you die

I just hope the people that I pray for pray for me

Keep them people out here showing fake love away from me

I grew an attachment to my pain cause it made me, I just hope the shit that I can't take don't break me

Running on no sleep, anxiety wildin' lately I'm inside OD

I don't got nobody, so I'm just getting high OD

Upping my tolerance, I don't get high as the old me

Don't know who to trust, I cut off everybody close to me

I dealt with abandonment from those who meant the most to me

Helpless, Isolated, I be by myself they think I'm selfish

I know I be too hard on myself but I can't help it