Tarpit

Seems like I've been Getting too attached with silence Let the lines blur between Love and peace and violence Let's change the station This anticipation will turn out to Be the end of me (be the end of me) How do I love myself When I'm used to hating How do I breathe Without choking and gasping for air It's not like I can talk about The things that brought me here How do I love myself When I feel like I've barely Made it through this year Feels like I've been Getting deeper every night and Trying not to hate myself But that's a war that I can't fight in Let's change the station This self-deprecation Will turn out to be The end of me (the end of me) How do I love myself When I'm used to hating How do I breathe Without choking and gasping for air It's not like I can talk about The things that brought me here How do I love myself When I feel like I've barely Made it through this year What's the point in Clawing my way back to the surface What's the point in fighting my way into the clear What's the point in making effort when nothing's worth it Sometimes I'm gold and Sometimes I wish I'd disappear How do I love myself When I'm used to hating How do I breathe Without choking and gasping for air It's not like I can talk about The things that brought me here How do I love myself When I feel like I've barely Made it through this year