I Don't Want to Die Tonight

Blind in my steps Am I falling Just like every other Autumn leaf? Bound to my flaws Hanging vulnerable In darkness on the ocean floor If only I was separate from what I created Maybe things would be better If we undid this knot And ended our hunger strike Following in the footsteps of my grandmother She welcomed all her pain So I'm keeping any extra I made to myself I wouldn't have expected anyone to notice it Tonight I don't I don't want to die But tomorrow I might Stuck to my false sense of self Hanging vulnerable in darkness We can't seem to ever get away from everything we want What if I was only waiting for my chance to jump? Tonight I don't Don't want to get high But tomorrow I might I'll be prepared to die I'll be prepared to die Tonight Kiss my mom and dad goodbye I'll be prepared to die Tonight