4am In Milan

Yeah Lost in my thoughts Trapped in my mind Every day I just find, myself in more shit I'm just getting hit from all the sides I just wanna die Or am I alive? I just wanna strive But really, I'm wasting my time This feels like a crime I choose suicide, the pain won't end It'll just subside If you were me you'd understand what I did Why I lost sleep doing all that I did Why did we done drank all that shit Why I just decided to quit Why I stayed up all of those nights I'm losing the battle, the war and the fights Why am I holding on so tight? My life will go before my eyes You think you know but you don't understand As a kid, I do what I can From A to Z, I fucked up the plan It's like I'm lost, I'm stuck in a trance But at the end, you'll be all alone Thinking, I should have just stayed at home But deep down I already know Along with my heart I have broken bones Now the games ended, put in a token Mind bout to be messed up, I think that I'm broken So much of these words but non of them spoken But when it comes out, I feel like I'm choking And I really thought you should know my pain Cause you have to claim that we are the same But I'm really intoxicated, draining my brain But really it's just me taking the blame But really I just wrote this song to express my view I did nothing wrong, but darling It won't be long, cause heaven be calling me on So just steer clear, you have all of my love You have my affection and all of my trust So baby girl just don't lose hope Because you gonnna find a way to cope But for now, I'mma take a rest And again, I'm sorry that I'm not the best