After Silver Leaves

You watch me trail along Wanting to be closer than logic allows I look up to you You put me down Hiding at the neighbor's Shushing as our friends call our names Closer than comfort Wrapped in shade You call me by her name But I was here first And I was your girl You live in dark corners to drag me in I am 18, I find it romantic Needing support and secrets kept hidden Feeling rebellious, feeling giganitc You weren't a good person but moments were nice Ignoring my conscience for a touching the night Drive to the hospital Trying to wake you Dragged from the property Right, see you later You call me by her name But I was here first And I was your girl And you call me by her name But I was here first And I was your girl Your hand over my mouth Decipher the sounds I push to make Say you're "better now" Ignoring lies, I'll guess it's safe I don't see you around Unless you're on me, pressed against my face Say you're "happy now" It's not the same, I need some space Sculptures come to life and someone asks me if I'm famous I'm shifting actuality, you'll stay the same as When grass is wet and August's cold Meet me in the car and have you hold me A moment so kind, the windows misting Ask if you're mine and then you kiss me I think I have to go You call me by her name But I was here first And I was your girl And you call me by her name But I was here first And I was your girl