Dying Trying

I'm only 18 And I feel like I'm dying I'm getting sad too soon I hope I make it coz I'm trying Nowadays it's all about sex, like how could I give one fuck If you want my heart, better give man love My emotions limited, ran out of trust Feelings and they locked up too, so therefore I'll never speak up My heart cold and my blood come blue, so don't complain when I freeze on spot I'm in the booth tryna heal my health And the girls don't like when I be myself So I said fuck that, they can hold that L That's another bridge I had to go burn as well I'm in the booth tryna heal my health And the girls don't like when I be myself So I said fuck that, they can hold that L That's another bridge I had to go burn as well Said I love you, do you love me back, like I just had a attack Got feelings but I can't let them stack and the girl I want went and changed her plans She said I'm too toxic for love, and she only wanna date with a man But then end of the day, can't fake what we had Memories were made, but we got set back I've got your face all up in my snapchat, flash backs from a year ago And oh how I wish how the times would change But the time has changed I'm really reaching goals Carry this weight all up on your shoulders, your gonna see that the struggle is shown I'm doing music till the moon goes low and express how I feel to this microphone Nowadays it's all about sex, like how could I give one fuck If you want my heart, better give man love My emotions limited, ran out of trust Feelings and they locked up too, so therefore I'll never speak up My heart cold and my blood come blue, so don't complain when I freeze on spot I'm in the booth tryna heal my health And the girls don't like when I be myself So I said fuck that, they can hold that L That's another bridge I had to go burn as well I'm in the booth tryna heal my health And the girls don't like when I be myself So I said fuck that, they can hold that L That's another bridge I had to go burn as well Things will stay the same Things will never change Life will be a mess In that life I became Hopelessly on the low Was doing what my brain Tells me to do Life I'm over you Nowadays it's all about sex, like how could I give one fuck If you want my heart, better give man love My emotions limited, ran out of trust Feelings and they locked up too, so therefore I'll never speak up My heart cold and my blood come blue, so don't complain when I freeze on spot I'm in the booth tryna heal my health And the girls don't like when I be myself So I said fuck that, they can hold that L That's another bridge I had to go burn as well I'm in the booth tryna heal my health And the girls don't like when I be myself So I said fuck that, they can hold that L That's another bridge I had to go burn as well I might be busy on the weekdays but on the weekends imma slide right through I'm traumatised of different behaviour, I just don't know when she'll switch her mood I got told my life is a story, different chapters and the fictions true She told me not to worry bout next men, but the next men tryna be her boo I'm stuck in my room and I over think things, I don't know why I'm overthinking I don't care if you catch me simping, ride for my girl my dawg like Tintin On the m-way close calls and misses, near death crash with my headlights blinking Tryna keep my boat a float I'm fishing, Titanic how my ship be sinking Nowadays it's all about sex, like how could I give one fuck If you want my heart, better give man love My emotions limited, ran out of trust Feelings and they locked up too, so therefore I'll never speak up My heart cold and my blood come blue, so don't complain when I freeze on spot I'm in the booth tryna heal my health And the girls don't like when I be myself So I said fuck that, they can hold that L That's another bridge I had to go burn as well I'm in the booth tryna heal my health And the girls don't like when I be myself So I said fuck that, they can hold that L That's another bridge I had to go burn as well Things will stay the same Things will never change Life will be a mess In that life I became Hopelessly on the low Was doing what my brain Tells me to do Life I'm over you