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I remember when you came to me You were crying no you couldn't breathe You were so distressed you could not sleep I felt the innocence get raped out of me You got body dysmorphia You got cuts on your fingers from When you broke your own mirror You're so pretty to me, you're perfect in every way I try to explain that but you just wanna push me away You wanna take advantage of me when I was so innocent Gaslighting the best of me Making me think that I really wanted this But no I didn't, no I didn't, now I'm lying on the floor My thoughts are like a piss in the wind, im left shaking on my own Im fucked up now in my own way Biting on my lips as they ulcerate and the blood starts to pour Im fucked up now in the headspace Smoke another joint so I don't have to deal with my own doubts I feel your hands on my skin Ripping my clothes off, pulling me under How do you justify this How do you sleep, tell me how do you sleep, man You make me wish I would die Cutting me open, leaving me fucked up It's burnt in my brain so I stay high It's killing me slowly, you're killing me slowly You're flicking that switchblade, Put it to my cheek babe I never thought you wouldn't See the anger that you dragged me through You weren't there for me, I always was there for you You wanna take about abuse, yeah look at what the anger drew It's like your name is engraved into my teeth Cus every time I date somebody New the topics always about you Cus I just break in the way that I can change Cus every time I think I wrote something new It's still always about you I'm disgraced to think that Suicide would help my mental issues Not knowing the facts that I need some help But I know that I'm alone It's like the moon is staring down upon me Yeah he's hungry for my soul If I survive through another night Is there a change ill be fine