I can't lie, I can not go on with this, I lost myself

And if I'm being honest I just need some help

Everyday I hustle 'til the clock hits twelve

Sun rise 'til the moon is gone the sky just melts

Yeah so I'm sorry I ain't hit you back

I just need some time to balance all my acts

My mind stay in Qusto think I'm too attached

Said I'm too attached

Yeah I see the problems in all this

Instead of confronting I'm running away

Sun is away

I got no room to be hunting for numbers I'm under their weight

Ton of you say you supportive, aborting whenever I'm cornered and done with the day

Hundreds of cases of this

I'm left alone, cause my way is missing

Hasta luego away with the kid

Dreams in the making it's taking a bit

Too much to balance retained by a pinch

So then it's like dandelions, 'way with the wind

Got no time to restart

No light to see in the dark

My only guidance gon' come from the heart That's why my brain is in parts

I can see it now I been a tenant

Autopilot cause I need a second

My own conscious be offended

Tryna X I, I'll be eleven

Homie repellent

All my friends turn away when it's Avant Garde

Enemies come when our plans apart

Back to start there's a pattern barred

Each moon phase gon' be back tomorrow

Yuh I came by

Last week I can't even say hi

Guess you got a new man to remain high

I've been lost in my head since grade 9

So I can't talk now gotta save time

Fast pace time ticking

I'm in last place, mind isn't

Overwhelmed I got things to do

When it's over well, I'll be here for you, but

I can't lie, I can not go on with this, I lost myself

And if I'm being honest I just need some help

Everyday I hustle 'til the clock hits twelve

Sun rise 'til the moon is gone the sky just melts

Yeah so I'm sorry I ain't hit you back

I just need some time to balance all my acts

My mind stay in Qusto think I'm too attached

Said I'm too attached

Why distressed I'm attached

My loyalty's never matched

My friends, that have passed

The hurt, still impacts

How much did I ask

The love that I give

Will I get it back

I fell in love with the rap

The street lifestyle I'm back

Am I gon' make it in music or am I gon' die cause my past

Am I gon' die cause my past

And the world ain't changing for me no

I said girl why you waiting for me oh

How were you attached to me

When I couldn't live happily

Yeah, you want me righting wrongs every night

In the city what you on, will you slide

Can't dream for us when I'm lost without light

Scared of the dark see the problems inside

Now take it back to the jump

We talked like once, I pulled my stunts

Guess they weren't packing a punch

Won't make no fuss, I'll wait those months

Too scared I factor my flunks

My life turned dust, no room for us

Too bad my past had me stuck

So called friends just laughing amuck (hahaha)

My confidence, collapsing, lost my trust I see the root now

2019, less behind me, someone to pursue now

On me, was too attached

Wrote my best songs through that

She didn't feel that back

That's when my light had cracked

And that's why I feel I been on my own these nights

Ain't nobody that's gon' hold me tight

Always working but it's never on myself

Been attached since a kid the life I live ain't even real

Who am I, who are you

Stare at my goals and they ain't coming true

Attached to approval, attached to Qusto

When will you finally like what I do

Wanted the city lights and they were fake

Found out that Qusto and I were the same

Stuck in my head couldn't write nothing else

All that I made, reflecting myself, Qusto

I can't lie, I can not go on with this, I lost myself

And if I'm being honest I just need some help

Everyday I hustle 'til the clock hits twelve

Sun rise 'til the moon is gone the sky just melts

Yeah so I'm sorry I ain't hit you back

I just need some time to balance all my acts

My mind stay in Qusto think I'm too attached

Said I'm too attached

I can not go on with this I

And if I'm being honest I just

Everyday I hustle 'til the

Sunrise 'til the moon is gone

Yeah so I'm sorry I ain't

I just need some time to balance

My mind stay Qusto think I'm

Yeah, yeah, yeah