Auburn

Tearing it out

it must not win

buried alive

beneath this skin

this laceration

it cuts so deep

if this is real

it's built by me

it's building

built by thoughts that lie to withstand this life

underneath are those words that whisper sadness

continue to try to escape my mind

drown in sorrow

fall below

senses burn

hearts exposed

dive down

rise beyond

caught by the throat

I start to choke in the midst of hope

feeling myself to be a failure

self infliction

learn to live in conditions

reflective of how I mask my fear

I must begin to survive

while my heart turns to ash as I grasp for salvation

sever instinct

forced denial

incision decays

senses burn

dive down

rise beyond

build a wall with which I hide

my instinct dies

my mind decays

now I can feel again

I will rise beyond my fear

rise

dive

tearing it out

it will not win

for my self esteem

will not give in

I callous these scars with strength in my heart

the comfort lies in what sets me apart