Manipulation by Design

Why should I apologize for the monster I've become No one apologized for making me this way Left alone in a desolate hell Shrouded by deceit Not knowing a future of jubilation Vehemence but a veil of lies Corruption surrounded by these thorns This burning ice that deafens the soul This cooling flame that blinds my senses Warmth I failed to recognize as it's something that I never knew Restrained by constant fear Rejection has become a valiant companion A vizard to blend in with your façade This disease ridden mind of mine is the result of your actions If only you could understand it Understand that I did not choose to have this Un-break my mind Un-break my mind Reverse the time so I can live this life This life of mine You swore you'd be there for me But that was a fallacy This clarity has become reality Un-break my mind so I can finally be free False beliefs that should never have been given Injected with your sense of stability Molded into the remnants of a forgotten ego The vivid evocation of my being further fragments my sanity Un-break my mind Reverse the time so I can live this life This life mine You swore you'd be there for me But that was a fallacy This clarity has become reality Un-break my mind so I can finally be free Who knew that abandonment could be so freeing My future has been released This new found perception Will guide me to rise from the ashes I am the one who survived in your shadow I no longer accept your betrayal I deny you space in mind I will sacrifice all of the essence Even if it means I break I will not wish death on you because you're already dead to me