Starting Again

So cold This world has grown so cold But I remember When a spark shined bright in me A spark shined bright in me Colors lifted New highs Tangled Reach for the sky Exhausting all alternatives To come to grips with misery What's one more red flag? Keep dreaming Swallow the medicine Reap all the benefits Still dreaming Captive drifting Slowly sinking I wish I had seen the warnings Constellating before my eyes Nowhere left to run Nowhere left to hide And no avoiding this time Moving on Doesn't always mean starting again I punished myself But I couldn't help it Draw lines between scars To make them more perfect And wake up in a hole I thought I loved But I'm saving face No matter what it takes I'd be better if I only knew what it cost And maybe that's enough Captive drifting Slowly sinking I wish I had seen the warnings Constellating before my eyes Nowhere left to run Nowhere left to hide And no avoiding this time Moving on Doesn't always mean starting again I'll count down the days Until that feeling sits back in my bones I wish I I wish I could take that Take that old pain away A spark once shined so bright in me But now it grows slightly dimmer With each passing day I ask how I can reclaim it The intensity of youthful adolescence This body is a temple by the beach But this world is a crashing wave And weather one way or another The ocean will always reclaim What belongs to it Captive drifting Slowly sinking I wish I had seen the warnings Constellating before my eyes Nowhere left to run Nowhere left to hide And no avoiding this time Moving on Doesn't always mean starting...