The Night (Part 2)

I wrote a song about being suicidal Put it on the internet and it went kinda viral And my old friends, we don't talk anymore But I still have the memories of wakin' up on their floor, and I'm mighty proud of where I'm at But I'm one bad day from fallin' back And I'm one bad day from relapse And I'm gone wind myself right back in rehab, yeah I ain't above it, I know I'm not I am blessed with everything that I got I thought by now these thoughts would stop But I still have these dreams where I am takin' shots Johnnie called me late last night And I told Mr Walker, "Just go home," whoa-oh I prayed I'd make it through the night Now I'm, I'm wakin' up all alone If I ain't with the band and I ain't on the road I don't know who I am when I am home alone And I buy all this stuff 'cause I wanna feel somethin' I feel somethin' for a minute, then it's back to feelin' nothin' All these books pilin' up on self-improvement How the hell can I improve if I'm gone read, but ain't gone do it? And I, I'm at war with myself Battered and bruised from my mental health, and Johnnie called me late last night And I told Mr Walker, "Just go home," whoa-oh I prayed I'd make it through the night Now I'm, I'm wakin' up all alone Johnnie's still callin' me Johnnie's still callin' me (callin' me) Johnnie's still callin' me (callin' me) I think I'm fat, so I don't eat I pop a Xanny and I send my ass to sleep I wake up just to do it all again Will this shit ever end? Johnnie called me late last night And I told Mr Walker, "Just go home," whoa-oh I prayed I'd make it through the night Now I'm, I'm wakin' up all alone Johnnie's still callin' me (callin' me) Johnnie's still callin' me (callin' me) Johnnie's still callin' me (callin' me) Johnnie's still callin' me (callin' me)