Currents

I, I've gone under again Can someone pull me in It's not that easy when You never learned to swim And your lungs are filled with water And you're a troubled person's daughter Who has lost control If the water was liquor I'd have drowned Long ago I, well I want to tell you I'm fine But then I would be lying And I am practicing truth Even though it's hard for me to do And I'm learning how to be ok In the current, i'm in today And I know my best will change From lion to sloth and day from uncertain day These currents I, I don't mean to make you sad But this is the suffering I've had And it's brought me here today To look you in the eyes and say I love you more than I ever would If it hadn't turned out this way And the messes that I've made Are the currents that have saved me And taken me to shore These currents