Angel In Lothian

When an angel fell somewhere in Lothian I was only a child but I trust my eyes She burnt up like a comet before me Before I could even say "Hi" Saw kingdoms come and go in Bernicia With a space station rattling above my head And I saw the dead I saw the dead Back then, yeah, the door was always open I'd come and go, back and forth, anytime I need But I'm needing it more now than ever 'Cause I'm fading away And I claw at the door every bad night But somehow it's blocked from thе other side I claw 'til my skin comes apart Until I feel something And I remember that pain in my mother Being helpless and feckless and far too young And my brother was spiraling down He said, "Kid it's not me, it's this town" So I rail against that feeling when it comes I no longer have solitude behind that door And I know drugs that can hold it You gotta hold it yourself I wish an angel fell somewhere in Lothian She could've fixed all the problems that I cannot fix But one day I might have kids myself And hope that I don't - them up myself Hey! (And I've been here, the door's always open)