Dead for Days

This is where the cop said his head hit

He'd been dead for days, eighteen hours away

I didn't see him but Tim did

That part hadn't changed since we were kids

Now I've got friends that don't know me

A wife that's disowned me

You in concept only to miss

And I've been sober for over two weeks

The only thing I learned from that man

Is I'd rather be estranged than next of kin

This is where my rock bottom is

It's a short fall from grace, from such a tiny stage

I can't believe the lies that my mouth spit

I can't believe she stayed as long as she did

I'm so over being sober

My needs are in me, not the drink

I'm riding a fine line

An accidental overdose or suicide

Tell my mom she was right along

And tell my kids this is where my head hit

This is what a life in flux looks like

I ain't got a bed to rest my head

This is how I hide from a guilt that won't subside

I ain't got a good reason for leaving