K.G.C

I wake up But I don't feel to different I'm thinking about my life And what got me in this position Wishing I can see the person I've been missing But she's up in heaven now looking down from a distance With the big man with the big plans Still bogs my mind when I try to understand What was his intentions why this decision Leaving me alone and cold without my mom I just don't get it Ya but thats life I guess I'm movin step by step Hoping I can make you proud Mom I'm doing the best I can But I'm fallen Ya I'm feeling exhausted I'm stalling spending so much time reminiscing on nostalgia God dammit I think I've lost it My mind drifts away Every time your picture goes and pops up in my conscience It's constant I wanna stop it I just wanna think of the happy things But my mind seems to do the opposite It's impossible I didn't believe it When they called me in school And told me that you were in the hospital I'm sorry for All the trouble that I've caused I took your life for granted And now that you're gone I feel lost And hopeless I don't know where I'm going Cuz you were my guide To help me in these helpless moments You're my angel now Ooo ooo Cuz you're my angel now Ooo ooo You're my angel now Ooo ooo You're my angel now Ya I catch myself staring out the window Thinking of all that fucked up bullshit That you and I had been thru We got in a fight the last time I really saw you Cuz I was sick of changing schools Making new friends Playing pretend When will this end Mom I don't know if I can keep doing this shit again Step dad after step dad They never gave a fuck All they ever did was waste our time And step on us Look at all the pain they caused Look at all the loved we lost Look at all the dangerous changes and phases that they brought upon We didn't need em It was just you and that I believed in But there was something there that I really wasn't seein Cuz you were sick And it couldn't be fixed Marfan syndrom What the fuck is that Nah I dont wanna listen to this shit I just wanna hide away and go playin with my friends Ya thats the adolescence of a stupid ignorant kid Just not knowing much But he's growing up You see you're the reason why I've turned into this person I've become ya You were strong and you never gave up You stayed positive and told me Nate go follow your love And thats the biggest thing that makes me upset Is you'll never be around To watch me fuckin play my own set And thats just a part of life that we have to accept And what ever waits for us in the end we can never expect it You're my angel now Ooo ooo Cuz you're my angel now Ooo ooo You're my angel now Ooo ooo You're my angel now Days turn into months Months turn into years They didn't explain My memories of you would disappear I'm overwhelmed with anger Cuz almost every time I look at your picture Feels like I'm looking at a stranger I fucking hate it It drives me crazy I keep talking to myself like Get your shit together Nathan Can't you see that you got the whole family worried You haven't talked to them for months How they gonna know that you're hurting I just wanna say sorry I love you My aunt and uncle My three brothers Brandon Justin and Russle My friends and cousins and my grandparents too You always made us see heaven When it was hell we walked thru And trust me I'm trying my best thats for certain Using my music to influence that person who needed purpose Inspire those who feel nothing but discouraged About following their dreams when they told you it wasn't worth it Cuz I've been in that dark spot From the ones I've lost But I got myself out Cuz I knew thats what she would want To keep on fighting and trying to do your best And become that figure that strives for more And nothing less Mom I love you and miss you You taught me so much But fuck theres still so much more that I coulda learned from you But forever you'll be in my heart and memories I'll have to do is look at the initials on my arm K.G.C You're my angel now Ooo ooo Cuz you're my angel now Ooo ooo You're my angel now Ooo ooo You're my angel now