Where's God?

Yeah Ye I walk through the valley of the shadow of death All praises due to most high who guiding my steps Though I'm dropping the depression I still carry his breath And I finally found a better way to grapple with death Naked I came into the world so naked I leave But it seems nothing is given, just taken away from me For so long I thought the blessings was a curse I received And lately I've been questioning all I was taught to believe But I fear no evil since I came out to womb Kinda shaky we believe what they said about a tomb That's the basis of my faith, I think I need something more But still anoint me with oil from the cup that you pour All my tables round my enemies you can't make it up Nice to be covered in some money but I'm covered by blood I done battles the rain, its light work for a flood And still grasp the concept of your unconditional love Where's god when he put me in a battle I can't win Where's god in the moments that I'm drowning in my sin Where's god cause they saying that my body is the temple But I see no place for worship every time I look within Where's god when they saying that he try to speak to me Where's god every time the outcome looking real gloomy Where's god when I got the opposition tryna sue me Can not find him anywhere but they saying he living through me He's not dead, but uncle and my cousin dying I give praise but I still wonder if the rocks crying Did I learn to mask the pain, or are my tears drying Its still the failure for me but ain't no fear in trying Ain't no balance in my life but I still go to church Can't be sure of anything but I think it work I ripped the bandaid of my skin and thought it wouldn't hurt Did the right thing but In a way that I just made it worse I need forgiveness Peter told me go and try religion I try to talk to my father but he barely listen Barely have time for me because he casting vision Malice in mental palace like the '04 Pistons I can't find you but I'm supposed to be your own creation I try to talk but no response, that ain't no conversation Alpha and Omega, Genesis to Revelations Omniscient god but just in case imma send location Where's god Great is your mercy towards me Your loving kindness towards me Your tender mercy I see Day after day Forever faithful towards me Always providing for me Great is your mercy towards me Great is your grace Yeah, ayy Yeah, I don't wanna talk with you no more Cause you brought me to my knees, and I ain't heard back from you You say you never left But I was drowning I was holding my breath I was biting my tongue Was fighting for my life and I broke past the high Yeah, that shit's on me Making up for my lies Ain't no time to grieve Yeah, I ain't waiting for you I ain't waiting for you I ain't waiting for nothing no more Got it straight out the muscle The shit I be hustling for When I try to stay humble This shit getting old Man I'm done with this shit Yeah, I'm done with this shit I'm done with tip toeing around Man I came for the top and I'm taking the crown No, you can't hold me down Can't hold me down Yeah, ayy ayy Great is your mercy towards me Your loving kindness towards me Your tender mercy I see Day after day Forever faithful towards me Always providing for me Great is your mercy towards me Great is your grace