I have done alotta things in the past

And I put it all on me

put it all on me

I carry it around like scars

tattooed allover me

tattooed allover me

I have done alotta things in the past

Start the healing process by owning all your mistakes

Regret has always been my constant companion

Wish i had put the bottle down or back in the shelf

Wish i had not worried about what the people thought and felt comfortable with myself in my own skin

I lived in the shadow and played by the shadow rules but when i ended up living life by my own terms

Men that shit brought me to my knees

And once your into something getting out is always tougher than getting in

You just sit there and wonder what's gon happen next

For you can never plan for what's gon happen next

Just pray you keep the promises you make yourself

Then maybe you will finally climb over the walls, that you built yourself and step into the light

Don't be confused it ain't as simple as it was writing this verse

First there was alotta shit that you dealt with

They say you lie in a bed that you made yourself

I gat scars on me from the beds i lay in

That's right from the beds i lay in

Papa no need to worry about me

I promise i will be home soon

I gat lost in all this weed and liquor and forgot it's past my bedtime

Am sorry but these drugs gat me like everyday

They entered in my mind and led me astray

Thought the only way to get by was to get high

It shows no respect for me to come knocking when you already in like i built the house

So I will just stay out all night

Kick it with the homies

When you see us in the morning we walk like zombies zombies yeah zombies

I have done alotta things in the past

And I put it all on me

put it all on me

I carry it around like scars

tattooed allover me

tattooed allover me

I have done alotta things in the past

Don't you know no one alive can be an angel

Lord please don't let me be misunderstood

I know sometimes am so care free with a joy that's so hard to hide

I keep looking out the window thinking am gonna see the person i used to be walk by

Then I realise the benefit of this new life outweighs the cost so i let it pass by

I look at myself can't tell how to be the person you want me to be

Another look at myself and i don't know how i became the person that i used to be rest in peace

I tell em no one is special and they think am special for saying that

We all blunder blindly from one drama to the next

But even at the darkest hour there's always a ray of hope

I gave up my life so i could save it

Am now just a sheep in sheep's clothing

Am a man who's always tired

Cause I live a life where too much is always required like a requirement even in retirement

in more ways than you can imagine