All the Ways I Could Die

Stumbling home through the rain Temptations tattooed on my brain Wondering, "Why can't I just be Happy with me as I am?" Suffering through all the signs Blind to all the times I was fine Used to say, "I don't play fair, I play god And that's all that I've got" I just can't wait to go sit in my room Contemplate all the ways I could die Self sabotage is an old friend of mine And self-care just isn't worth the time (Self care just isn't worth the time) Seeing sound Crisis abound Found nobody's really themselves Paradise wasted on me Now let's see how I fail by design I just can't wait to go sit in my room Contemplate all the ways I could die Self sabotage is an old friend of mine And self-care just isn't worth the time Done rearranging my mind for the chase Won't let all my ambition go to waste If everything's nothing, then what's left to blame? It all changes, and nothing's the same Ooh, ooh-ooh-ooh Watch me fall out of fashion The high's finally crashin' tonight Ooh, ooh-ooh-ooh All my demons disguised And my faults all reprised Find myself in a lover, the thought makes me shudder They're just like the others, backtrack and recover Now I just can't wait to go hide in my home Shut the door, be alone, brace the fall on my own (my own, my own) I just can't wait to go sit in my room Contemplate all the ways I could die (all the ways I could die) Self sabotage is an old friend of mine And self-care just isn't worth the time Done rearranging my mind for the chase Won't let all my ambition go to waste (my ambition go to waste) If everything's nothing, then what's left to blame? It all changes, and nothing's the same