Speaking For Myself

I'd really like to get this off my chest Speak through these words in your hands I find it hard to know where to begin So I'll just dive in I know that I've been looking rather thin Like myself but minus the chins It's not their drugs that eat me from within But they don't help either I've been lying to myself through all these years So blind, so insincere And now any day, I'm bound to disappear But I'm gone already They'll pry until my memory's erased Stripped like the smile from my face So I'll bow and let my maker lead the way In this last dance I could peel my heart wide open I could dream without a crutch But lies run deeper than an ocean And my two feet can hardly touch I never saw it clearer than tonight Like a burning candle or flashlight No paradise will greet me when I die Just white noise I'm guided by a voice choking on tears He's got orders, a promising career Through the dark we don't see the puppeteer In the final hour Now whether I've been speaking for myself Or taking cues from someone else Just know that I will sleep right through the bells And dream eternal I could peel my heart wide open I could dream without a crutch But lies run deeper than an ocean And my two feet can hardly touch When my time is coming Will you let me go When the fire's burning Will you let me know