Catharsis

Lip biting Nails bleeding Messy room And messy mind And every so often I'm trapped inside Alone with company Still the life of the party But don't got life in my body Can't shake this feeling So I'm in the habit Of finding distractions Ah, fuck I haven't moved on As much As I thought But it Can't be that bad right Until I'm alone at night And it's too quiet I'm too used to riots I can't explain why I feel this way But I'm not okay So if I wanna scream I'm gonna go out Gonna yell club songs way too loud You find a way to co-exist with life When you're walking the borderline Between laughing and crying Thriving and just surviving Oh I've been Searching for catharsis all my life Maybe I'll find it this time Eyes heavy Head hurting Sorry I can't explain Words are inadequate When you're lost in your brain I try to find any way to Just make it go away But I got a lump in my throat and I feel like nobody knows So I'm in the habit Of finding distractions Ah, fuck I haven't moved on As much As I thought But it Can't be that bad right Until I'm alone at night And it's too quiet I'm too used to riots I can't explain why I feel this way But I'm not okay So if I wanna scream I'm gonna go out Gonna yell club songs way too loud You find a way to co-exist with life When you're walking the borderline Between laughing and crying Thriving and just surviving Oh I've been Searching for catharsis all my life Maybe I'll find it this time Just get me get me out I've tried everything and it don't help Nothing hurts more than nothing Just get me get me out I've tried everything and it don't help Nothing hurts more than nothing So if I wanna scream I'm gonna go out Gonna yell club songs way too loud You find a way to co-exist with life When you're walking the borderline Between laughing and crying Thriving and just surviving Oh I've been Searching for catharsis all my life Maybe I'll find it this time So if I wanna scream I'm gonna go out Gonna yell club songs way too loud You find a way to co-exist with life When you're walking the borderline Between laughing and crying Thriving and just surviving Oh I've been Searching for catharsis all my life Maybe I'll find it this time