You're All Asleep

You're all asleep when I'm awake I walk in the park to the sound of my smile It's fake Steeped in lonely yesterday eve As I finished my tea to the sound of my heartbeat I'm sorry I was mean I'm sorry I said those things I'm sorry to twelfth grade me And I'm sorry to my body Sorry never cut it But I'm trying to cut it now I miss you all Will you love me when I'm around I miss my friends and I miss my dog Who knew two months could drag out so long First it's two then its three Can you promise me one thing You'll remember me When I'm back on Clinton Street I'm sorry I disappeared I'm sorry I fucked you both I'm sorry you didn't know Until a second ago Sorry never cut it But I'm trying to cut it now I miss you all Will you love me when I'm around I miss you all Will you love me when I'm around I'm sorry mom for complaining and Poppy for not calling I'm sorry for histrionics in college and talking about jumping I'm sorry for lying I guess I do that sometimes I'm sorry mom for ever making you cry Sorry never cut it But I'm trying to cut it now I miss you all Will you love me when I'm around