Getting to grips with losing control

There are some things that I think you should know

That all the scars that I can't help but show

Are like hands that grip tightly around my throat

And I'm still picking apart that winter night we found ourselves falling out of love

Piecing together all the words you said that I can't quite remember

It keeps playing over and over and over in my head

I think you should hear this one last time

Even though you'll never listen

I still count every step to where you used to be

While I carry this weight you've given me

I still count every step to where you used to be

Each step I take runs through my bones

I want you to know that I'm trying

I know I don't want to see you but I can't help myself

I keep trying to say goodbye

I can't find the words

For what it's now worth

I wish I'd never met you

I've tried to say goodbye, so many fucking times

But those years are always on my mind