Permanent Scars

I'm wearing myself thin No more strength left within I always let my self destructiveness win I'm begging on my knees These feelings just won't leave Hyperventilating until I just can't breathe I'm wearing myself thin No more strength left within I always let my self destructiveness win I'm begging on my knees These feelings just won't leave Hyperventilating until I just can't breathe The thought of ending my life Is always on my mind I don't really wanna die But I don't even feel alive Permanent scars on my arms No reason for alarm I turned my back on my soul, and now there's nothing left The thought of ending my life Is always on my mind But if I've never really lived Then can you even call it suicide? My soul is dead This state of mind has left me perpetually impaired Pull the trigger 'Cause if I've never really lived Then can you even call it suicide? Is this even suicide? Is this even suicide? I'm better off dead Is this even suicide? I'm wearing myself thin No more strength left within I always let my self destructiveness win I'm begging on my knees These feelings just won't leave Hyperventilating until I just can't breathe Help me Somebody, fuck I'm convinced that there's nothing left Nothing left to live for I'm convinced that there's nothing left Nothing left to live for Slit The thought of ending my life Is always on my mind But if I've never really lived Then can you even call it suicide?