Joy (Guilt)

I don't want to be idolised I want to be the person that you see waste away I want to be a character in the feature film That slowly slithers away And when I'm standing there, facing you I want you to look at me and feel nothing Because I am nobody You feel something because of you Not because of me I hear what you say You say I do? I feel the emptiness of your shallow thoughts That you create and expect me to do something with Because the key to connection is designed by you And the key to love is happiness And happiness is found solely within yourself Don't desire me Desire you Don't idolise me Idolise you Stop. Panic. Stop. Drive. Crash. Die. Stop. Start. Stop. Panic. Stop. Drive. Crash. Die. Stop. Start Guilt Guilt I want to be sad and I want to be sad with you I enjoy the unattainable goal I'd take someone I love to the Andes Just so I wouldn't have to explain it to them We could experience it together The greater that made itself And what could I do with anyone If I couldn't protect myself And there's reasons why I can't tell you everything It stems from parts of myself And you should listen to the silence Listen to your silence Oh go on I'll give it a go Pass me that silly book I wish this road would last forever I turn the headlights off So I can't see the double lines I'm driving forever I'm fogging up the windows I'm stirring in the guts It's raining on my shoulders And there's coffee in this cup Stop. Panic. Stop. Drive. Crash. Die. Stop. Start. Stop. Panic. Stop. Drive. Crash. Die. Stop. Start. Guilt Guilt Hell bent on taking it Life Hell bent on taking it Life Guilt Guilt