Teen

I say I want to die, but that's not what I mean I spent years in the dark, I just want to be seen I scream to the heavens 'til I burst open my spleen Why God why God, I felt this way since a teen Open it up so I know that it's real Supposedly you say you know how I feel Fucked with my mental now I gotta heal Going bananas just take off the peel I don't know love but my heart its been aching It's broken and craving that sweet validation I cannot blame you, it's my manifestation The drugs that I take feed the hole that I'm making I'm making worse, see I'm making it worse Yea, I'm self aware, is it a gift or curse I don't want to live cuz you know that I hurts Come on go ahead and bring me the hearse Going through life and I can't find my mission I'm going through life and I think something missing I'm sharing my feelings they say that I'm tripping I'm going through life and I'm thinking about killing myself That's how I felt I asked for help and you put me through hell You said you loved me, bitch I couldn't tell I accept penance but only through Zelle Life is a trap and my feelings got caught Feeling alone yea I think it's my fault Tryna unlearn all the shit I was taught She gotta silver tongue I won't be bought I say I want to die, but that's not what I mean I spent years in the dark, I just want to be seen I scream to the heavens 'til I burst open my spleen Why God why God, I felt this way since a teen You told me you cared, but you was never there Betrayed me again something I couldn't bare A smile on my face, something I couldn't wear I gotta stop asking is this even fair Bring myself to the table, why that shit started dissolving? If I get a gun don't ask where Z yea, I shot him Got him Go and put him in a coffin Save your tears for later, there's no way you could've stopped him You thought that you knew me but that wasn't me The one that I showed you was you on repeat With the lies on your face I just had to retreat For your crocodile tears, I admitted defeat Tried to say goodbye before I hit the skies And I realized there's no one Who knows me for who I am, not even him who calls me son I was blinded your smile, and I thought you were the one But I'm still just a child, when it's all said and done I say I want to die, but that's not what I mean I spent years in the dark, I just want to be seen I scream to the heavens 'til I burst open my spleen Why God why God, I felt this way since a teen