ImJred670 Smiled through the pain while going through my depression

I'm wanting to be better, I'm lost in my direction I'm chasing a high, running away from my reflection

Scared to face the person who was in me everyday To help cope with the pain, I'm popping my prescription

Two years later, no refills, I'm thinking how I'ma get it

Turn right to the streets, feel like nobody could help me

Now I'm on that fentanyl, I'm bout to OD, I can't breathe

And I'm aware, but I can't stop, I'm going crazy

Thinking how am I gon' live, how am I gon' see my babies

All these thoughts be running through my head while I be high

But once I'm sober, I don't think, just only how to get supply

Took a lot right to the nose, now my brain fried

Feel like a burden, it'd be better if I probably died

All this pressure on me and I'm just making it worse

And all these blues around me, it's not Benjis, it's just perks

I'm fighting this shit daily, yeah, it hurts

I'm wasting everyday, time keeps flying

I'm aware, but I'm not okay, just gotta make it one more day

With no drugs in my system, & I relapsed ten times and never quit, and now I'm straight

Been a year ain't made no music, I was building up my strength

This a fight that I fight, throw my anger right on those weights

Lookin' healthy and handsome, so keep your bitch right out my face

And now the vibration, I'm in a different time, a different place

I made it far from where I came, small progression, celebrate

Hand up on my heart, I walk my journey, learning down the way

Walking through with a different smile up in my face

Smiled through the pain while going through my depression

I'm wanting to be better, I'm lost in my direction

I'm chasing my high and running away from my reflections

Scared to face the person who was in me everyday