Bad Decisions

I been making bad decisions for the sake of the thrill Don't want to throw it all away but I'm scared that I will I got angels all around me and I know they would hate me But the demons in my head, they never escape me I don't know where to go from here Pour it up and sip again till I disappear And I only have the drugs to catch my tears I want to take all of this money and disappear Spill my soul up in the studio to sunrise Demons got me pushing, I been fighting on the front lines I tried to smoke it all away, I smoked a million backwoods Had to get back on the percs, cuz they killed the pain that good Living day to day, I think I lost my direction I'm losing friends at every step but it done taught me lots of lessons Living off faith, losing all my expressions And I done missed a lot of things cuz I be going through depressions Blow another bag just to get another necklace I don't feel I'm in control my life has always been so reckless Toxic love and it's killing my self esteem Told her I was off them percs that's why I'm sippin' this codeine Always cared too much I gotta learn to let it be Lately my mistakes are weighing on me heavily Tell me why it's always someone instead of me Even though you know it's no one else ahead of me Always paint me as the enemy, scars are getting deeper Broken but I'm still a dreamer Had to put my heart in the freezer I didn't wanna do this either Blue bills went and turned into my North Star Looking all around me wonderin' where my supports are Money runs the world, and love is make believe I been off them pills and I ain't talking no Aleve Walking like a zombie I be lost in my own head When I hit the grave I made my own bed I got problems that I don't even know yet Everyday I'm asking if I'm ready to go yet Asking me what I'll find Cuz I done hit the bottom like a couple hundred times Couple lines, you can't have none of mine Wasn't there when I was down, now you want some shine What has life come to now Pushing all the lines is the only thing to do now See you in the next, it was nice to know ya Time to say goodbye cuz it's time to go (yeah) I been making bad decisions for the sake of the thrill Don't want to throw it all away but I'm scared that I will I got angels all around me and I know they would hate me But the demons in my head, they never escape me I don't know where to go from here Pour it up and sip again till I disappear And I only have the drugs to catch my tears I want to take all of this money and disappear