Forgiven

I got this offsetting uncomfortable energy on my mind I been at this seven years and watch family fall behind I'm losing touch with my people I'm growing good with the bad I'm thinking less about others Should I reach out to my dad He missed, my whole childhood, who's really the victim When I get rich I'll fly him out, and say the 3 year old missed him I never knew him as a man and I ain't prepared to lie I just want his conscious clear, in case we meet in the sky We won't be father son Although we look just alike Let's have a friendship Man to man, and just catch up on this life Its crazy Crazy things alot of nonsensical feelings on can haunt you Just know that if I bring up the past it's not to taunt you It never was, well maybe before But now, I'm truly happy, and I'm actually mature I understand things happen And it's all love either way I'm a product of your decisions At the end of the day It's not a time, no It's not a place, no It's not the season Give me some space It's not an maybe It's not a how It's a what if They ain't feeling me now It's not a time, no It's not a place, no It's not the season Give me some space It's not an maybe It's not a how It's a what if They ain't feeling me now If I told you all the things that was on my mind If I told you all the things that was on my mind If I told you all the things that was on my mind You'd go crazy, crazy, crazy Yeah I know, my vision ain't flawless But I was raised by radio When moms bronco was stalling Slim shady, DMX, 50 Cent, and some Biggie Got me through dark times I feel they went through it with me I guess, to full circle Dad The blame ain't directed In your direction I never stopped and blamed some neglection I blame nothing on a thing Things happened so well I thank God every chance I love how everything fell I love how everything feel Love when the struggle is real I love when the people are fake Love the excuses they make Love when they say I ain't great Love when I make a mistake Love it alot when they love me But love it most when they hate I'm great It's not a time, no It's not a place, no It's not the season Give me some space It's not an maybe It's not a how It's a what if They ain't feeling me now It's not a time, no It's not a place, no It's not the season Give me some space It's not an maybe It's not a how It's a what if They ain't feeling me now Swear Destiny stuff is crazy Leave me thinking I am too I wrote this song last week And guess who hit me out the blue I was gonna ask my sis Ashley, if she could get in touch Then I received a voice mail From my father man life is nuts I'm convinced, everything happens all for a reason Spoke to my dad and got caught up on a couple seasons Talked for a few, we good, but will it ever be normal And if they made a time machine dad, would you walk through that portal It's not a time, no It's not a place, no It's not the season Give me some space It's not an maybe It's not a how It's a what if They ain't feeling me now It's not a time, no It's not a place, no It's not the season Give me some space It's not an maybe It's not a how It's a what if They ain't feeling me now