I've bitten my tongue so many times
It's hard to believe I still have one
Only to taste the bitter words I swallow
And the shame that I wear and the weight that it bares
I fucking know that it came from your wardrobe
First came judgement, then anger
Then came the laying on of hands
Queue the fear conditioning
God hates me anyway
He spit at me and said
"Your power challenges me
I must send you where your soul will go to die
"What have I done?" He screamed when he created me
"This thing will kill me one day
So I must surround her with pain and hate
In hopes she'll never ascend higher than me
The years that I served you were hell
My true self underneath was screaming
And just like you
I punished her for existing
I force fed her each Sunday
Every sacrament each taste
Of your body your blood
And believed I would be saved
At the last day
I saw how fast you turned your back
When my faith began to shake
You sent your hungriest demons
But I saw myself in their eyes
And I realized I was living a lie
This was not meant to be
And that god is me
Fuck
