I Was Lying

I wish I could reconcile, cause deep inside I'm dying So I put on a smile, and I pretend I'm fine I'm just another screw up, baby don't waste your time I told you we'd be different, but we knew I was lying Yeah, we knew I was lying, oh, we knew I was lying I'm just another screw up, baby don't waste your time I told you we'd be different, but we knew I was lying Yeah, we knew I was lying Im from a small place, but got big dreams Idolizing people on the big screen Left home when I was like 15, I ain't never think my mom would get clean Yeah, the shit seem way better when you on the outside looking in, don't it More money, bring more problems Can't trust family, your friends phony, that's real Devil been testing me still, pursuing my destiny And I still pray, multiple times of the day But I am so far from heavenly, I got so much hate in my heart The thoughts in my brain are too dark Some of these dudes who claiming they with you Are really against you and you are they mark Let me tell you, loyalty is rare Ain't nobody tell you life is gon' be fair Can depend on one person, but one person That's the person you see in the mirror Because you were your own worst enemy Something an OG said to me I took the wrong road so long I just hope that you know that I'm gone if you're giving me time I wish I could reconcile, cause deep inside I'm dying So I put on a smile, and I pretend I'm fine I'm just another screw up, baby don't waste your time I told you we'd be different, but we knew I was lying Yeah, we knew I was lying Oh, we knew I was lying I'm just another screw up, baby don't waste your time I told you we'd be different, but we knew I was lying Yeah, we knew I was lying I've learned more every day of what life is I don't wanna be the bad guy, I'm just like this Yeah, family reunions was never invited Believe me, when no one believed in me, I did We've been misguided, environment filthy Tryna get up out of this life before it kill me Laying low, over three weeks sober, that's an accomplishment But hell, y'all don't feel me, I used to tell anyone that would listen that I'ma be rich and yeah, I'ma be famous lot of setbacks in my past can't change it Playing with somebody's heart, that's dangerous People tell me I'm chosen, how the hell when I'm broken My heart is so frozen, never know what tomorrow is holding I know that I'm lonely, I can only count on me My trust has been stolen, leaving no matter which way that I'm going Put on a smile, but live with regrets Put on a shine, no one to impress All of this time, I pretend I'm fine, I'm manic depressed Bartender, won't you pour me another one It's the middle of the night and it's raining outside I thought that last one would've made me forget That I done so much wrong in my life, I can never make it alright I wish I could reconcile, cause deep inside I'm dying So I put on a smile, and I pretend I'm fine I'm just another screw up, baby don't waste your time I told you we'd be different, but we knew I was lying We knew I was lying We knew I was lying I'm just another screw up, baby don't waste your time I told you we'd be different, but we knew I was lying We knew I was lying