Diary (feat. Lakeith Rashad)

IN MY ROOM 12 YRS OLD WHERE DO I BEGIN/ SUFFERING FROM ANXIETY AND REGRET FROM ALL MY SINS/ FORGETTHE PAST I THINK ITS DIFFERENT EVERYTIME THAT I TELL IT/ REALITY IN MY FACE AND YOU CAN ALMOST SMELL IT/ I HAD VISIONS OF ME DYING WHILE IM OFF IN MY SLEEP / HOPING THE DEVIL WONT TAKE ME AND DROWN ME OFF IN THE DEEP/ I FIGURED I HAD TO GO THROUGH IT I MIGHT AS WELL DO IT/ WITH THE INSPIRATION I HAD/ I HAD TO GO THROUGH IT/ IM ON THE EDGED WALKING BLINDFOLD I SLIPPED ON THE LEDGETALKING TO THE DEVIL WHILE IM DRIVING HES OFF IN MY HEAD/ SHOULD I TAKE THIS THANG AND PULL IT OUT BLOW MY DAMN BRAINS OUT DO IT MY MR. PAUL I THINK YOUR SCARED WE SHOULD FIND OUT!

VERSE 2

IM ON THE PORCH TALKING TO GOD WATCHING CARS DRIVE BY/ IM HAVING CONVERSATIONS WITH GOD AS I LOOK AT THE SKY/ IM REMINICING OF MY GRANDMOTHER I WISH SHE WAS HERE I KNOW I I LOST ALOT OF LOVE ONES I CRIED ALL YEAR/ DEAR GOD PLEASE SAVE ME I KNOW THAT YOU HEAR ME/ I SAID MY PRAYERS LAST NIGHT I KNOW THAT YOUR NEAR ME/ I NEED YOU MORE THAN EVER/ IM STEADY FIGHTING WITH THE DEVIL/ IM A SOLDIER IN THESE STREETS IM ON A HOLD DIFFERENT LEVEL/ LIFE WITHOUT FEELING LIFE WITH NO MEANING ITS AN ENDLESS HIGH CEILING LIFE WITH NO FEELINGS/

YEAH ONLY GOD KNOWS MY HEART PAPER BAG EMOTIONS I TORE THEM ALL APART IN MY DIARY