Chemical Counterpart

It's just a week and I could change my ways I've been taking these pills for all my days But nothing changes if you can't take a leap of faith It's just a couple days, it's just a couple days And I can hold myself accountable But this chemical imbalance makes me vulnerable and I'm scared So used to feeling the cold that when the warmth hits it's too much to control But like I said, it's just a couple more days Clear head was a lie, too many thoughts in my brain Overwhelmed but I still need to push on Press repeat on that familiar song It gives me hope it won't be long And that I'm not alone No I'm not alone anymore I got so used to the feeling of numb That when my feelings rush in I want to cry out to someone, please The pills are calling my name and if you tell me I should take 'em I'll have someone else to blame Oh no I'm not gonna' give up I'm not gonna' take 'em No I'm not gonna' let myself down anymore And it'll take all that's in me Climb mountains and part the sea Just to make it to the shore where I'll find Some peace within my mind Some peace within my mind Now it's only day two and I just want to sleep My hands are shaking and I feel so weak I forgot what it's like to be this sober How many hours 'til this week is over? I lost my heart To a chemical counterpart Let's restart Oh no I'm not gonna' give up I'm not gonna' take 'em No I'm not gonna' let myself down anymore And it'll take all that's in me Climb mountains and part the sea Just to make it to the shore where I'll find Some peace within my mind Five days clean I never thought it could have been But I'm starting to feel myself again I know it's not the end but I'm proud Of everything I've felt I won't play the hand I'm dealt anymore I'll pick myself up off the floor and move on I'll hold on Oh no I'm not gonna' give up I'm not gonna' take 'em No I'm not gonna' let myself down anymore And it'll take all that's in me Climb mountains and part the sea Just to make it to the shore where I'll find Some peace within my mind