Quicksand

I want to tell her how I feel but that's not gonna work I swear you could of been my world but now I'm lost and I'm hurt Picked the ball up and I dropped it for her What's it all worth Fighting to the point that I forgot what we were The same reason I feel low's the same reason that your on the Phenergan Talking shit to me I blocked her on purpose What makes you think I'd be here if I wasn't for certain Sometimes I think of you like what is wrong with this person I couldn't give her what she wanted I put what I've got in verses What was what, I don't know I'm probably lost and nervous We're on and off so what's the point of putting all this work in You pulled me out the hole I was in and pushed me in further And all I ever did was put her first and push her further I really try my best Got no intention to hurt her So why's she turn around and try to put it on me I ain't got a lot left There's no meds that might put me to sleep This shit's a lot deeper than what it looks on the surface We said we weren't speaking but even if I was hurting I'd question whether leaving was right coz if it's me that decides I'll probably leave the right person This shit's a lot deeper than what it looks on the surface We said we weren't speakin but even if I was hurting I'd question whether leaving was right cos if it's me that decides I'll probably leave the right person Tried to help her but she turning down my offers like she wanna be worse You should be off it not on Oxy's at work She said I stopped her taking everything she got in her purse Timings everything and you can't put that watch in reverse This is toxic and it's obvious you want me to turn Before I met you had a vision now it's constantly blurred Made a promise to my self but I was not gonna learn til' I felt hurt again Watched it all burn again I swear I used to make you feel like your on top of the world You acting heartless then I start to see the drops on your shirt You really crying right now like you want this to work I swear twenty minutes passes and we argue bout who started it first Or who's past was the worst I got questions in my head, what happens after the dirt After this verse cat's will laugh at me like fuck he's the worst I could of done this all without you now I'm stuck and it hurts I just wish you'd understand how much I cared about you And maybe you'd see it for what it is I was stupid thinking I'd be scared without you I guess it is what it is