Nice Try

I'm proving to myself that I can be reliable The way that I respond to music something undeniable And I know why I pushed it back I thought it wasn't viable A strand from my heart strings I didn't wanna try to pull Cos this is everything I ever loved and fucking more And I don't know if I want comments on my every thought I'm tryna rummage through the damage done I self destruct You know I'm fragile you can listen but don't fucking touch Cos I might fall and break and you could cut yourself on that I hurdle over heartless people every time they crawling back And its excruciating tryna build a new foundation All I've ever known is killing time unhappy getting wasted Never took responsibility for anything I played my hand and blamed it on the cards when I didn't win But I was just a kid I never knew I'd want to live I didn't think decisions that I made would ever change a thing Stranger I have sinned I do not have my shit together I cannot commit to anything unless its getting better I gotta trace it back start from scratch heal myself Vultures say they love me but they disregard my mental health Kinda flakey man they here one day and gone the next They always fuck off when they think they got all they can get They fill their pockets up with energy that I provide And I'm supposed to cop it sweet and take their lies within my stride? You got some fuckin nerve I got a rant for that You wouldn't be the first man I can handle that That's not a problem son you just like all of em Now move along and find somebody else who's gonna fall for it What? You're the one who wanna treat me dumb What? You're the one who use a see through front Don't get mad when your shortcut don't work Nice try fuckwit, level up I known worse I, I, I known worse uh uh I known worse Nice try fuckwit level up I known worse Cos your kind don't like it when my kind recover I bypass these tyrants they cold I like summer Mind altering substance I boycott the drama I follow the sun since I done lost my father Don't like the world much since that day in 03 Now people who teased me try act like they know me That's okay I'll fuck up soon and you show me And everyone else you fugazi so phoney I'm lonely but yes said that's better than broken I'm only a mess when I'm fuckin with those men I I take a breath and be grateful for dope friends Anyone to rock the boat is just a drop in the ocean uh I I I known worse Uh uh I known worse Nice try fuckwit level up I known worse