For All I Know

I feel myself evolving the growing pains hurt It would be so easy just to forget everything I've learnt But then i'm giving in the days add up Never played the long game always took the shortcut New light blue skies at the forefront I step aside I been holding all the doors shut Naturally apprehensive it came from my nurture That's why I dissect all my feelings hand them to observers There you go can someone come and run my socials? I just wanna make the music this is when I'm feeling vocal I don't wanna gee you up with photos from the fucking booth I wake up in a tent and I'm just glad to see the roof And you know you the only person ever saw it through I knew I had potential I might reach it cos of you Smile upon reflection release some tears of attitude My achilles heel copped some flack from people's attitudes Yeah I met some cunts along the way Right when I had momentum they were fucking with delays But now I sink my teeth in when I have something to say It's every rapper's dream so of course it sounds cliche To those who laughed at me when I would be creative You can suck a dick and choke on it I hope you fucking hate it When your mates are asking if you heard that girl that left 'em all cremated Send them ashes to the lab as warning to those shitty labels You can't preorder what I haven't thought of yet I cannot sell you anything but tickets to my head Come and see me shed my skin I do not need it anymore Surface isn't in the realm of avenues I must explore I wanna see what's next I wanna write the end Watch me working towards something they can't comprehend Cos once it happens it's a memory I've seen before Soaring through the sky I met my fair share of unicorns And they won't let me die I'm here forever more Isn't up to you to change my mind nor me yours I am in a paddock all a sudden like I wrote once No idea how it would happen know the best is yet to come If we connect I think of you when I feel the sun And if I get it right it's only cos you let me fuck it up If we connect I think of you when I feel the sun And if I get it right its only cos you let me fuck it up Let me learn the things that no one wants to talk about They told me I was up and down and that it needed sorting out They said that I needed help I needed them but that's okay Despite the disagreements, I can see what made them speak that way Just when you say I lost it feel like I discovered something honest Something I can offer without all the promises This is how I fix my heart cos healing doesn't come from doctors All I ever needed was somebody to acknowledge it And I might be alone for all my life for all I know But I met birds of a feather told me that isn't so And everyone I met upon the long and winding road Point me in the right direction, honey I am almost home I said I'm almost home